Roll out the red carpet- AF is on her way!

More spotting & cramping. AF is most definitely on her way. Took a pregnancy test in the morning just for punishment good measure. BFN. Sat for 2 ½ hours waiting for the car shop to troubleshoot yesterday’s car alert lights.

Today’s attitude? Screw babies. Maybe I am not evolutionarily meant to have them. If things happen for a reason, then isn’t this NOT getting pregnant after almost TWO years of trying reason to believe I shouldn’t have babies? 

Told hubby over dinner that maybe we should just take time off. Plan another trip to Europe. Drink and be merry. Admittedly this attitude might change tomorrow, but that is how I feel today. Pissed. Defeated. And very, very sad. Because at the end of the day, I want a baby more than anything in this world.